my Confession

never will i forget

2012-02-13T13:18:00.001+08:00

I want you

2012-02-13T13:17:00.001+08:00

thats how it is

2012-02-07T09:57:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU

2012-02-07T09:56:00.000+08:00

;)

2012-02-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

what can i expect from someone like you? NOTHING.

take it as it is, thats how it has to be.

whatever it is im gonna keep running, boy ;)

you will always be in my prayers and mind. :)

stay healthy and great.

if it ever happen that we'll meet up,

give and show me what you got, aite. ;)

i do miss the awesome time and i miss the chance of having one the last time. :(

do take care of yourself ok?

hugs and kisses

How life works

2012-02-06T09:41:00.001+08:00

can i be your queen?

2012-01-31T20:26:00.000+08:00

new beginning with BFF?

2012-01-29T01:27:00.004+08:00

when i saw you, lots of questions pouring in my mind.

lots of mixed feelings jumbling in my heart.

i have to be honest, i cant even really look at you yesterday.

you were there standing right in front of me.

but i was so tensed, i was unsure, i was confused.

i dont really have much to talk. i was..damn! not myself...

i should have relaxed myself and give the best out of me!

cos I MISS YOU! and i should be excited! should be running towards you and HUG you.

i was so stupid enough to have those boundaries.

because i was so scared, so scared to be hurt.

when i should just live with it, have fun and treasure every hour, minute and second with you.

even if it wont last forever.. WHO CARES?!

i wanna have every moment with you, where ever we are, to be awesome! i wanna feel comfortable with you again. i wanna have a clear mind when im with you.

i wanna be in my own world with you. i wanna be able to let down my hair and just go crazy, laughing, smiling, being shy.

throw all the tense, the negatives away. and just have fun!

i wanna be able to look at you and smile!

i hope to meet you again and this time be great with you like it was my last.

just wants to feel like I matters to you

2012-01-26T10:12:00.001+08:00

Dearest Yan yan

2012-01-25T13:24:00.004+08:00

thinking of it, im gonna miss her alot.

she is leaving and not coming back.

such a adorable good friend who always entertain the silliest side of me.

im blessed to have her along my life journey.

may our friendship last even if we're apart; an airplane away. :D

truly apologise if by any way i hurt you, my friend.

i will remember the time we had, mostly at work and not forgetting our Ah Mei Concert!

hahah! that was SICK! im the only non-chinese speaking in the audience. i had fun, truly.

eventhough my favourite songs were sang at the very least, 2mins. I had fun!

my very first concert! =) thank you.

We will travel around the world together, ok??

Hope to see you soon.

Lightweight Demi Lovato

2012-01-25T12:25:00.001+08:00

I'm a lightweight

Better be careful what you say

With every wordI'm blown away

You're in control of my heart

I'm a lightweight

Easy to fall, easy to break

With every move my whole world shakes

Keep me from falling apart

...

2012-01-25T10:48:00.001+08:00

Its not that I dont love you

I just dont wanna hurt you

I cant let go of the good times we share

together.

2012-01-24T23:11:00.001+08:00

Goodnight Boo.

have a good rest and the sweetest dream.

I miss you, i always been.

see you around.

hugs & kisses

Yours truly

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Travel with me Baby!

2012-01-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

LOVED THIS

2012-01-24T16:40:00.000+08:00

NOT-So-Red Velvet with Cream Cheese

2012-01-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

Today i baked with Best Friend! our first attempt!

i would say its AWESOME! we LOVE our cream cheese after some adjustments.. teehee!

tomorrow im off to bake chicken pie! weehee! getting ready for the crust. =)

its all the matter of time

2012-01-20T09:03:00.000+08:00

‎*I believe I can get what I want. It is just the matter of time. And when

money gets into the pocket,tell me,why should I worry? Working hard,flying

high. :)*

i miss dad.

2012-01-19T11:53:00.002+08:00

Dad,

I MISS YOU!

Hugs & Kisses

Your daughter

Best Friend lyrics

2012-01-19T10:17:00.000+08:00

First we get the talkin, then we get the touchin
If we get pass the phone games we'll be fuckin
I kiss like the french then put my tongue in your ear
Do it like the dogs do it girl and pull on your hair
For me a different scenery just mean a different position
In the tub or on the sink I improvise now listen
In the chopper or on the jet join the mile high club
I'm no fool I know money can't buy me love.

You said that I could call you whenever I needed someone to listen to me
That's why I'm here standin by your side cause you always come through for me
So many others tried to be where you are but they just wanted to do me
Glad you took your time and now I'm satisfied that's why I want you all to me

can i?

2012-01-19T10:14:00.000+08:00

Cause if you were my best friend, I want you 'round all the time

Can I be your best friend, I promise boy you'll be mine.

I want you to be my Best Friend

2012-01-19T10:00:00.000+08:00

I miss you, dad. I truly do

2012-01-19T09:41:00.000+08:00

it says a thousand words

2012-01-19T09:31:00.001+08:00

I wish

2012-01-19T09:30:00.001+08:00

if i have one

2012-01-19T09:17:00.001+08:00

thats how it is

2012-01-19T09:14:00.001+08:00

Got to be kidding me!

2012-01-17T21:37:00.001+08:00

what a day to end with.. Had my weekly jog and someone in my past appeared all over again.

GREAT! shocked?? Definitely! To believe it?? No!

go on telling your stories, i love hearing to tales.. They excite me, truly.

aww..You're forgotten?? let me see how could that be possible WHEN MY BLOODY WORK DESKTOP PASSWORD WAS YOUR NAME; Rashidi12.

sound stupid of me, right?? but thats just it. Cant change it till it expires. Stupid system!

Im just being obedient to your words, sir. "dont text me till i text you" and dont forget the happy smiley icon you sent. It Went along with it. And please get updated, Dear was way out of my storyline. You owe me loads, sir. But what the hell, you truly bother? You could have just say it just now everything and never hope that it would happen when we meet. Cos i know you know that its impossible ever since you magically disappear.

the only thing that im thankful and my prayers answered are you still alive breathing. But im not ready being hurt and wait all over again. Till then just wait till i text you. Ouh anyway, its already 2012, new year? you do know that right?

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2012-01-10T12:32:00.002+08:00

heyy!

im all excited that my flight and hotel are BOOKED! so 10th March 2012 is confirmed of my departure at 3am to Xi;an, China. be reaching Xianyang Airport approximate 12pm. My aunt, Uncle and Mama will be tagging along. everyone seems all excited and planing our days well! i really cant wait till the day comes. counting down, praying that time will move a little bit faster and everything will run smoothly. China here i come! 8 nights long. Leaves have been approved. wow! to be honest, i really cant believe that this is happening. im truly blessed. Alhamdulillah.

Goodbye 2011, HELLO! 2012

2012-01-01T10:30:00.000+08:00

OUH YES! I ended my very 2011 with my beloved Mama. we headed of to City Square, JB for lil shopping and Swensen to top it all!

And i welcome 2012 with whole spread of Nando's accompanied with my lil cousin, aunt and Mama, of course! awesome day!

Our First Carousel!

2011-12-30T12:09:00.003+08:00

On the 27th December 2011 marked our first Carousel dinner.

I would totally agree to Zilah that Seoul Garden is way better but since its for our lifetime experience, it was AWESOME! but sadly i was SICK! can you believe it?? How can i be sick on our special get-together?? we've been planning this for months, and i was sick?? pfft! but it went great though despite the bill moment.. haha! i wont share, its between us.. its not like we have to wash the dishes or anything.. hehehe! the food wise, hmm, for an Asian Malay taste bud like mine, i would say its an average.. i dont favour the Seafood section though, serve it cold, too westernised, i guess.. the rest was great! especially the Dessert Corner! wuhoo! =)

At the whole, i would say that our day was great, not about the food or money. just being together was the cherry on top. having them was the best gift, and im proud to call them TRUE Friends in my life. till our next meet up, girls! =) maybe after my China trip, its my treat aite! LOVE YOU GIRLS!

what happened?

2011-12-28T21:09:00.000+08:00

pretty soon farewell 2011

2011-12-27T09:55:00.003+08:00

hey yall!

how are you? 2011 ending REAL soon,huh. how have my 2011 been? pretty alright. =) happy, happy. definitely few ups and downs along the journey but a splendid experience. yeah2, still single at the end of this journey! haha! prince charming got lost in the DEEP, THICK forest, i guess. i know few guys mentioned along the way, but still none stick around neither do i. what a good year though. my first year and beginning of my career. i would say a year of welcoming me to ADULTHOOD but yet again, im just still me. *woot2! im pretty thankful how my year had been. nothing has stop me from moving forward and strong. i maybe such a MESS, but still i pull through all the way till the end. and i believe this new year ahead of me, will be more exciting and full adventures. be it good or bad. everything will be A-OKAY!

anyway friends, im going to dine in at Carousel @ Royal on Scotts with my beloved girls! i so cant wait for work to end! see you girls later! *muuahs!

Family love

2011-12-24T03:07:00.001+08:00

This is what i call family! Our bonds are strong as ever.. i love them and i have more of them.. Hahaha! This just few that made it to MBS.. as it was my first, im all sexcited and amazed! Its such a beauty despite the weather.. Sad though.. ;) we will have more outings together loved ones.. Ouh yeah eventhough it was just the 4 of us, we kill the BEST time ever being together.. Kecohrable! I thank Allah for having them in my life..

Shout out to Vans

2011-12-23T17:22:00.001+08:00

A picture of my new shoe which is sooo sexy to me! ;)

Nothing but pain

2011-12-23T17:11:00.002+08:00

i realised that knowing and falling for you is just a waste of my time and effort.

all i feel are heartaches, tears-rolling. and you just have your ways through.

i'll stop chasing and hoping stop having you running through my helpless mind.

its okay

2011-12-22T11:52:00.002+08:00

after letting everything out to my dearest cousin, i feel great and its totally okay not to be okay.

and yes, my life is such a MESS! but im glad that i made it through this far and still leading my life ahead. =)

Changes

2011-12-22T11:50:00.001+08:00

2011-12-20T15:54:00.002+08:00

everyone has their plans ahead.. i do too, i guess.. so whats my plans are, again??
hmm.. all i want is to travel and maybe take this opportunity to experience living in other countries too.. you know maybe back-packing..i really have to save and my determination just dont seems strong to save! eergggh! spend, spend, spend! thats all i've been doing. and saving for Xi'an trip was quite a success but tough though! seriously from a spendthrift like me. pfft! thats a miracle! and its confirm, that this 10th March 2012, im going off to Xi'an and thats my first stepping stone to travel around the world. =) somehow i BELIEVE that i can achieve my dream. that's my DREAM afterall. =)maybe it wont be as big like others, to be someone useful, great, etc. As long that i earn myself, dont trouble others, stay happy and Mama as a priority, i think thats all i need to do. and not forgetting always be thankful cos HE's the greatest of all. i truly cant wait till that day comes, flying off to a foreign country that no one could ever thought off. =) Xi'an, come on, who would ever thought of going right? all would mention, Paris, Barcelona, Perth, etc. for those, one day i will step in and explore but now this is where i truly wanna experience first!

try me

2011-12-08T13:41:00.001+08:00

Aries #SensualSpots : Face. Touching the lips, blowing hot air into ears, kissing her eyelids are sure ways to send a chill down her spine.

- Farzana

2011-12-08T11:37:00.001+08:00

I think its normal for humans to take

advantage of one's sincerity and kindness.

Just dont try testing how far can the person lasts. Cos u

will never know if the person will stll be there as always

the next day.

Somebody come get me

2011-12-07T21:58:00.001+08:00

yeah

2011-12-07T13:59:00.001+08:00

so we could...

Aidi Bin Kasmuni

2011-12-07T13:50:00.003+08:00

you were always needed back then.

now, you free to go whenever you want.

i dont need you now. not ever.

im best without you.

missing you is never an option.

and it shall just remain as it is,

just missing you.

i miss having to sleep next to you

2011-12-06T09:40:00.001+08:00

thats basically it

2011-12-04T21:10:00.001+08:00

BLOG SHOP

2011-11-30T08:42:00.003+08:00

hey! this month I order some clothings, so here they are.. I blog shop, so what do you think ? whatever it is, i like them and cant wait for their arrival. they cost me $50/- inclusive of postage fee.. so its cool.. ouh yeah, the blog-shop named Pretty Love Pink its through Facebook. so you girls want to check it out, do so aite .. they do have some authentic bags such as Gucci, Prada, etc.. but i cant really assure you how true and authentic they are .. didnt thought of buying them either. they do cost hundreds but lesser than the original prices.. and they have Babies' and Kids' stuff too.. ADORABLE! loving them but i have no kids of my own though.. =) do browse through if you really keen and interested to know.. i love blog shopping for clothes!

*peace

MY NEW ADDICTION

2011-11-28T11:42:00.002+08:00

so true huh?

2011-11-24T21:03:00.000+08:00

“People think that if you love somebody hard enough, then

everything’s gonna work out. People are wrong.”

eXplorer kids

2011-11-24T10:24:00.002+08:00

The monkeys are now eXplorerkid members.. It was fun and i had loadsome of fun playing with them.. It was over at AMK Hub, 4th floor.. Member fee will be $15 each and first hour will be adfitional $15/kid. So i spent hell loads of my money on them.. To sum everything up, it cost me over a hundred!! damn! The membership only for kids.. So the adults will be additional $2 per entry.. Heard over at E Hub its huge and the adults can play in most stations... Wanna bring them there some day..but my babyboy was being cranky that day.. spoiler..! Pictures over at fb.. c(:

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lead me on

2011-11-22T14:41:00.000+08:00

I could put on a mask telling myself that i would do best without you around here with me but I cant lie to myself . You were so wrong , you led my life on ,you brought me so high felt like I was an airborne then you drop me so low and I got lost like a newborn . So now I'm not even the same person that I once knew.

NO EDITS .. the improvements by Oratane

2011-11-18T16:22:00.003+08:00

This the only clearer picture i could get.. (1 month ago)

the only picture i took when i had a terrible break-out..

look at the forehead.. gosh!

sorry for the gigantic picture.. the latest, without edits, effects..

perfect close-up.. see the difference?? my pimples like being scrapped off..

hahahah! truly thankful aite .. so need to continue the treatment .. =)

broken arrow

2011-11-18T09:56:00.003+08:00

What a dragg!

2011-11-17T17:12:00.002+08:00

hey!

im truly happy and Thank Allah that the Oratane medicine work on me.. so far, its truly getting better but i cant continue the medicine for this month cost im tight .. it cost $129 but with God's will, i'll continue next month .. and kill them for the entire time .. =) hehehe!

so ladies and gents, if you truly have terrible acne problems, regardless, do visit the doctor who offer Oratane .. all medicine do have side effects .. do google it out for more information ok ? its really worth the money .. =)

happy

2011-11-14T12:13:00.003+08:00

hey3!

to be honest i am so happy for my love, Pwincez.. finally she broke up with that rude jerk whom i hate so much .. sorry, love. teehee .. whatever it is i will always be by your side and support you whatever that makes you happy .. =) and now she's with a sweet romantic guy .. so far, so good .. he just loves to surprise my priwncez .. keep it up but praying that this just not for a show but truly sincere from his heart .. and im super happy for pwincez who always shrieking out of happiness, shyness, surprises and being loved by him .. and she will tell me bit and pieces about him .. to make me jealous huh? hahaha ! its ouhkae, pwincez .. =P im not .. update me more ..

thats about pwincez .. how about me? hehehe!

ouhkae its been a week i didnt meet Dear..

and we met up last Friday and we really spent our entire time together ..

and as i planned, we meet when i received my pay and its my turn to treat ..

we went to eat Pizza hut, Dear's choice and since its been so long i didnt eat Pizza hut, why not?

and we had it over at Siglap .. never thought of such place in my 19 years of life .. but thats how it is .. and im pretty IMPRESSED with their service, i truly felt welcomed .. and its so cozy .. thank you dear, it was a splendid experience though .. then we headed of some place to chill, talk and just spending time with each other .. teehee! dear has his ways to make me smile and happy .. we didnt realised the time we spent and had our supper at Al-ameen .. teehee .. and head home at about 4 am.. rabakz .. =P then work the next day .. weehee !

thank you, dear ..

do you?

2011-11-10T09:41:00.001+08:00

i pray

2011-11-09T13:22:00.003+08:00

been killing time watching Naruto .. hahaha! ouhkae, its been so long for me to really update this blog of mine .. its not im busy or anything .. =D

here's my confession for you, Mr ..

on a trip?? thats what you said for sure .. hmm .. uncontactable ?? hell yeah ! is it a dumb move to try calling you using bff's number ? i dont know why but it hurts .. why ?

cut the crap, Siti .. why even bother, right ? eeergh ! i have to put an end to this for sure .. you wont make me understand either .. but i would like to see you or probably meet you for the last time .. not sure when , for that i wont decide or plan .. till then you're always in my prayers ..

SE-WEEEET tk saya? hehehehe !

siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan ..

tak menarik hati .. tiada memikat ... *singing

will you allow me?

2011-11-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

YOU NEVER DID

2011-11-08T15:20:00.001+08:00

is that it?

2011-11-08T14:54:00.001+08:00

hell yeah it sucks

2011-11-08T14:44:00.001+08:00

It's sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos, old text messages, even old statuses and it brings a smile to your face, but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn't be looking back. But you can't help it because they really meant something to you and you thought it would last.

WHY IS THAT SO?

2011-11-08T14:32:00.001+08:00

i really do

2011-11-08T14:22:00.000+08:00

BUT YOU COULDNT CARE LESS..

Rashidi.. thats what i thought

2011-11-08T14:21:00.002+08:00

you knew it, dont you

2011-11-08T14:19:00.001+08:00

dont understand still.. why?

2011-11-08T14:17:00.001+08:00

2011-11-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

My California King

2011-11-08T00:10:00.001+08:00

Just when i felt like giving up on us

you turned around and gave me one last touch

that made everything feel better

and even then my eyes got wetter.

so confused wanna ask you if you love me

but i dont wanna seem so weak

maybe i've been california dreaming...

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Cant stop falling

2011-11-03T11:33:00.001+08:00

Each day i keep on falling..

and when i fall, i fall hard..

you've been there for me..

catching me fall and hold me tight..

i like you.. *Winkz

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always about you

2011-10-31T10:47:00.002+08:00

when you're away,

all i can talk about was you..

all i can think about was you..

and all i can cry for was you..

every night i wont talk to the moon like Bruno does..

instead i talk to my heart hoping you at the other side could hear me..

wondering how you were, what were you doing, where were you..

were you missing me or even thinking of me like i do..

when you told me i meant so much to you.. it broke my heart..

in fact its breaking.. you could hardly see me as a human being with heart and feelings..

you never made me understand you in fact you DONT even give a chance to.. protecting me??of??

how much do really i mean to you?? you tell me.. im off.. i cant always wait you know.. and i know there's no way we ever gonna meet again or infact you might even leave again.. :'(

Dedicate to you

2011-10-31T10:00:00.001+08:00

2011-10-28T15:39:00.003+08:00

~~i dont understand why,~~

~~whats going on and i dont know~~

~~how am i supposed to feel about this.~~

~~you could have at the least see me as a human being~~

~~with a heart and feelings..~~

~~CANT YOU?~~

which one?

2011-10-25T12:06:00.000+08:00

with Super Red Boboi Boy!

2011-10-17T09:41:00.002+08:00

heyy there! yesterday was super duper tiring.. me and little boo went to the zoo.. under the hot blazing sun! damn! the sun was ok, but the $$$$ wise spent, damn! it almost cost $150.. my love for you little boo..my love for you.. after zoo trip, sent little boo home, and me spent the rest of my night with Suhaimi.. he was from his lil get-away trip from Batam.. then we had dinner, next stop Waterfront.. sum it all up, great day!

Made my day

2011-10-13T09:14:00.002+08:00

hey there!

how have you been? great?? thats good.. =)

ouhkae, yesterday i had fun, i wont say it a blast.. but it somehow made my day.. Thanks to Suhaimi..we went for a movie, Al-Hijab, over at Rex, Little India.. before that we went for dinner of course, im not sure where but its opposite Mustafa Centre.. had my Kway Teow campur Bee hoon.. my badd, i prefer Ayer Rajah's way better.. ouhkae the movie, its not soooo scary but im a "scare-dy cat"..! hahah!its full of shocking moments, it also indicated warning for heart-attacks people.. so yerp.. Suhaimi never let me close my eyes or cover my face.. meany! but i would say the story line, hmmm.. not good.. the beginning has no links at all...seriously.. then we head of to JB for bike servicing.. ouhkae, guys with bike, this is their monthly a-must to do.. so yerp.. while waiting, we head for our Watermelon juice.. a big guy with super HUGE cup, little girl like me got a regular one..pfft! i didnt get to take photo of his super HUGE cup! but i must say its a one HUGE cup! =)) we had some silly times.. crossing, jumping longkang to longkang.. hahaha! he's one sweet gentleman at the whole.. i had fun! reading this might not sound so fun, but experiencing my day with him, it was great! thank you, i truly appreciate spending time with you, Mr Suhaimi.. =) see you soon!

Ar-Raudah Medical Clinic

2011-10-12T08:58:00.002+08:00

heyy there! you know what yesterday i went to see the doctor for my break-outs..yeah! finally..insyallah in 3 months time or so, there's changes and getting better, amin. you pray for me too aite.. =) but i have to bear with the side effects doctor has warned me, like it will pop out more acnes, which is a good sign as the medication are working and activating, insyallah. then it will slowly reduce and kill them.. =) dry skins and lips.. but the IMPORTANT NOTE is never to get myself pregnant.. as it can cause disabilities to the child.. hmmm... ouhkae, im not married and not planing to have child as yet, so for that, there's nothing to worry about. =) supposedly Pwincez accompanied me and i had it last minute.. she couldnt make it though.. doctor, took my blood for test and gave me Oratane, my medication.. take it 2 caps every morning.. heee.. ouh after 5 mins of consultation, i pampered myself with PEDICURE! hahah! wasting money?? whatever, once in a while kinda thing.. teehee! i didnt colour my nails for sure, mum dont like it either.. then heading home, met Pwincez and her BF.. errgh! i dislike his RUDE behaviour and Pwincez just let it be.. come on, baby.. dont let yourself to be so in the 'REJECTED' list seyh.. you deserve better treatments.. dont be in my idiot friends list, please... pfft!

it sucks

2011-10-11T14:27:00.000+08:00

jiwang jap je ehk

2011-10-11T12:09:00.004+08:00

biler aku baca semula ape yang telah aku lafazkan.. titisan airmata mengalir membasahi pipiku yg ber-pimples ini.. *hahah! aku terkenangkan dirimu, terkenang setiap detik detik indah bersamamu.. Gelak tawa yang tidak terhenti henti, Gelagat lawakmu yang tidak rasa malu, Pelukanmu yg erat, Bibirmu yang lembut masih ku rasai..sayu.. semua itu hanya tinggal kenangan.

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

2011-10-10T14:08:00.001+08:00

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

A Walk to Remember

2011-10-10T10:56:00.001+08:00

think about you, Little Boo

2011-10-07T09:35:00.000+08:00

Smile People!

2011-10-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

Happy Wednesday!

2011-10-05T10:40:00.003+08:00

Heyy3!
today im so gonna confess about.. hmmm? what should it be? Heyy Heart, anything you wanna share?? How about you Mind? ouh yes.. both of you mad about Abg right? that hippo guy, my elder brother... gosh! actually nothing new about him.. he always took things arent his as though he owns them.. eerghh! being a little meany, i changed my Mr. Acer's password too.. so that he cant use it.. i dont know for how long.. tonight im so gonna get back my ipod back, and i wanna use it for my journey to and fro.. if he in needs of gadgets so much! buy them! CASH! who asked him to be in debts.. deserved it lorh... previously, he owned everything.. being so stingy and boastful.. look what he ended with.. ZERO! i dont care even if his future gonna be bright and he's gonna own things that i dont, cos i know that i might have them too and its all the matter of time.. right? so screw him.. now, nothing is urs, loser! BLUUUEKK! =P

Weekends Fever!

2011-10-03T11:37:00.002+08:00

Saturday 01/10/2011
i met up with Amin at 11pm and followed him to JB as his bike need to do some servicing and washing up.it really took hours.. guys, bikes, long hours.. aint a problem for them.. every ladies know that bikes are their first wife.. heehee.. ouhkae, it was my first meet up with Amin. so how is he? hmm.. ouhkae..not bad.. i wasnt a fan of riding bikes with guys, honestly.. except for Dad. so i was very uncomfortable, fidgeting around, biting my nails... each time i slided forward towards him, i pushed myself a distance.. i keep doing that on the road..didnt held him either.. haha! and i felt that he was a little irritated with me.. oppsy..! my badd.. ouhkae then reached back Sgpore at about 4 plus am.. hmm, then it started to rain.. we stopped and chat at the void deck near my place.. we talked and teased, played games over at my itouch.. it was just alright.. nothing much though.. and mum, mum just seems to be so worried and a little annoying.. hahha! this is what she said,"why u always go out with different guys?" i was like WTF! in my sleepy, pissed mode.. i answered," HELLO Ma, since when i go out? i've been working and working and working.. only today i went out..." so true! the last time i went out with a guy was with YOU..when was that? months ago.. wait, or maybe it was with my best buddy, Rahmat.. ouh yeah.. it was with Rahmat.. cos after that day you went all silent and left me alone.. so yeah! i've been busy with works and tutoring.. gosh mum! you've been so busy with yourself and you know who.. you dont seems to realise anything about me.. errgh! ouhkae, forget it.. it upsets me thinking about it..

Sunday 02/10/2011
OFF day! stayed home, dad came home and met Pwincez for dinner! and the cheese fries over at Triple 8 was delicious! and worth the money! teehee! Tender Best, you're in my list!
ouhkae then, and dad, dad hurt me.. he said he was all disappointed with me..you know how it feels? its like you being pierced right through your heart.. thats how i felt the moment i read his msges.. i did my best dad.. i really did! i paid all the bills, i did what you told me to do! i did! ouch! its you! im disappointed in you! its supposed to be me being disappointed in you for leaving us! for deceiving us for that OLD BRAT BITCH! im way disappointed, disgusted and crushed with your attitude towards mum..towards us, YOUR FAMILY! its suppose to be this way not the other way round.. how could you, dad.. how could you..think dad! think! you think that your 850 is a huge amount?? you think its enough?? do your maths, dad! SHAME ON YOU! ouh! i forgot that you're such a thick skin jerk to be ashamed of anything.. dad, i suggest you stop your shits with me before i hate you just like your boys do! please..

TGIF

2011-09-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

hey! yeah! a little delay on my post.. teehee! ouhkae.. today was such a horrible start for Friday but a great ending.. let me share what happened today, it was my first day for my monthly period.. ouhkae.. everything was fine before i left for work..it was raining heavily, so as usual it was freezing cold.. on time for work and thats when it started.. my tummy cramp! OMG! horrible unexpected unimaginable one... damn! i kept going to the ladies, thats for sure. the fifth time i went to the ladies, thats the most scary moment/experience i ever had. its my first and will be my last. cramps getting worst, head started to be heavy and spinning, vision all blurry, body all getting numb and weak... i got worried.. never faint before.. so i guess thats how it feels to faint, i supposed. so, without any delay, rather than to fall and faint, i sat down on the floor, i remind you i was in the ladies..right there where i always take pictures of myself. i sat down there, shut my weak eyes and started chanting prayers..*selawat* i didnt bother about others at all.. i just chant my prayers and ease my mind.. i dont know for how long but i felt it was long enough for me then, i start to perspired badly.. as though i was under a hot sun when it was all cold.until i assure myself that im fine to stand and head back to my office.. i asked around for panadol and fortunately Keith has it. i ate 2 of it and as time goes by im all better.. teehee! and pwincez baked brownie for me! thats the best for today! hahaha! tuition went well, Amin called, talking all crap, being all silly, laughing away... so yeah.. thats how my Friday went! hahahaha! dramatic ehk..

Little Boo

2011-09-29T17:47:00.002+08:00

Cinamon Pretzel Stix

2011-09-29T16:01:00.002+08:00

Auntie Anne's, my favourite! teehee! remember we went suntec just to get my pretzels after our JB trip? hahah! ok, im crapping now. *roll eyes*

ouhkae its so true, in love, marriage.. every flaws seems to be so beautiful.. everything seems to be a-okay! but once you break up, divorce! your ex will be your worst enemy ever! thats when most bitches and jerks of each individual have such a foul mouth..when mum told me what dad text her. Yii-OUCH! she teared and i feel her pain, i truly do.. its truly hurtful when someone bring up about your flaws and cursing you when before, nothing seems to be in the way.. haish! how to "kahwin" like this? hahah! scared "tak kekal macam atok moyang kite", scared to face what mum is facing right now.. i know, i know.. i have to pray for good things. and do good deeds too.. pray for the best.. i know.. thats why we should take other's life experiences as an example for us to learn. ouh...now i understand what the book, Understand Psychology, trying to say..teehee..

ouhkae, today aunty treating me and mum Nasi Ayam Penyek over at Lucky Plaza! cant wait! teehee!

SICK!

2011-09-28T12:25:00.003+08:00

having problems? yeah, me too.. everyone does. teehee..and the biggest problem i have is YOU! forgetting you is aint simple you know.. it really takes alot of time and a little ego.. wuahahah! ouhkae lets not talk about you, its not helping me either..

im super sick today actually its been for two days, but see.. im a good example, i still come to work.. *roll eyes..*hahaha! thought of taking half day but i'll consider it..its not like i have loads of work to do here but i badly need to lie down and rest.. cos this is killing me.. ouh yes, just wanna share, yesterday i slept over at grandmama's over at West Coast.. haha! missing my little Boo you see. so why not and its been quite sometime i hadnt been there. brought the kids over at Clementi Mall, had our dinner, do a little of shopping for those monsters. errgh! those brats really love spending! and its so true, even if i earn 10k, they can simply eat them up.. hahah! once in a while heh.. not always.. haha! that little aunty, my niece, bought her Hello Kitty lipstick.. so mentel and due to fairness and a little of jealousy, my little Boo bought Dettol Hand Soap.. hahah! he said,"my whole body have alot ALOT! of germs".. hahaha! cute! niece want it too but i told her since she bought the lipstick, its unfair that she has to buy two items.. and im glad that she listened. phew! Monsters! as always i slept with little Boo after i ate the medicine gave by my aunt. today i was almost late for work, i took cab.. hahaha! my little Boo, woke up and ran to me, stopping me from going to work.. he said," you got fever*touching my forehead*, cannot go to work..." hahaha! you will be tickled if you could see his actions.. he always make me laugh even in my bad days. Love you, Boo!

thank you

2011-09-27T14:18:00.004+08:00

mum, you have been great.. and we didnt know the hardship you have been facing the entire time, mum. you never even let us taste it and you selfishly having it all to yourself. today, i know what you have been going through. and i was shocked on how we did survived all this while with what we have. you hardly complained and we just live on. today i paid all the house bills that was ordered by dad and its with the monthly money he gives. wow! let alone the bills, it ate up 3/4 of the money. come on! why wouldnt it.. he gave only $850..and he expects no outstanding?? the totals bill cost $900.. and how about food? household necessities? and mum has been helping him out by working for extra cash, for survival. for us. for family. i cant believe dad is being so irrational and left us without any sympathy but instead he add on more fire to it.. i will tell you why.. i rented out my room to my aunt as little as 200.. i wont tell you in details why, i have my reason. and dad, wants it as he said it is his house and he has every right to have the share of the rent.. for god sake! such a greed! damn! what's wrong with him.. by that he would cut down the monthly money if we didnt give the rental.. wow! disgusted? hell yeah! then i came to realised and think, how did mum do it, previously when all of us were still studying and she never fails to give us bus fare and allowance, even extra if needed. mum, i promise you that i will work hard and you will never have to face hardship ever again.. you have been the best Super Mum.! its time for you to stop and relax. thank you for everything mum.. i truly appreciate having you.! i love you! muuuahs!

Good Morning Mr Monday!

2011-09-26T09:06:00.002+08:00

hey there! lets welcome chilly Monday with a hug. *brr.. its cold.. hows my weekend been? great! Saturday was awesome with my 3 fair ladies, Yan Yan, Saf and Fatin! we laughed, jokes, teased as though we're in the mall for shopping but actually we're WORKING! gosh! but as our forefathers said dont laugh too hard, you will end up crying.. and yeah it happened.. something happened at home, and i couldnt take it that it got me all angry and teary.. i dont mean to shout at you Mama. you know that i love you. But you made me in a position where im stuck and dont know what to do.. between you and dad, how am i suppose to answer to every questions that were shooting at me? why am i involved at the first place? i never imagine of being in that situation but i was, yesterday. Money has always been an issue especially in the topic of DIVORCE! thats when individuals start to talk about rights.. damn! as for Sunday, im suppose to go to work, my ladies waited for me.. im sorry, ladies.. i was up late and i wasnt feeling all good after my 'splendid' night.. i couldnt sleep well and all up.. i went for tutoring later in the evening and spent half of my day there, watching F1 with pwincez and her mum.. teehee.. i didnt thought of home that moment.. i text dad and mum in the morning of how i truly feel of the incident. Mum replied and apologised but nothing from dad. its ok.. i didnt expect anything in return though. i promised that i will work hard for the survival and happiness of my family and all i need is time, dad.. just give me all the time you have. Thank you for everything dad. i love you.

give us time

2011-09-25T17:31:00.002+08:00

Abah, please give us time.. you can take back your right of the house by the time we leave this place.. for now, all i ask is time.. im working hard and doing the best i could.. i beg you. please.. please dont make money as a huge issue here.. we need it, every penny of it to survive and save for our place in the future.. please.. when we stand with our own two feet, by then im sure we will not bother you and your life.. but i assure i will never forget you abah.. without you i wont be where i am now.. you have taught me alot and for that how could i forget you.. you're my Dad and i will always carry you, your name where ever i'll be even till i die...

Slacky Casual Friday

2011-09-23T09:53:00.004+08:00

heyy3! yeah Thank God its Slacky Friday! hahah!

im all dress down just for Friday! teehee! i was almost late for work actually but fortunately i reached as usual 0820hrs.. good job Siti, your punctuality is excellent.. teehee! *BIG SMILE!

just praising myself.. this is part of psychology..*yeah right..pfft*

here goes my next confession and this tickles me.. ofcourse everybody will encounter this.. you're posting everything about someone you're mad with on FB and that particular someone click 'like' and goes on asking you, "are you alright? wanna share?" hehehee! funny?? no? pfft..fine!

Understand Psychology by Dr Nicky Hayes

2011-09-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

General Knowledge: MEMORY

Definition:
The mental faculty of retaining and recalling past experience. -thefreedictionary.com

Based on Understand Psychology:
Memory is an active mental process rather than a simple tape-rocording of what has happened. In many ways, this is quite a hard concept to grasp, because we always feel as though we are remembering exactly what happened. But it's true, nonetheless. The trouble, though, is that we dont often have a separate, objective record of what actually did happen, so we cant compare our memories with the real thing.

hmmm..

make me understand

2011-09-22T09:50:00.005+08:00

yesterday as i was heading home.. my mind was recalling of my past, my worst enemy.. SECONDARY years! gosh! i dont understand either.. it keep on recalling, playing just like a hindi movie, long.. its my conscience i supposed.. i tell you what was playing in my mind..

1st thing that played was I purposedly made an innocent girl, Suhaila, spilled her bowl of mee soto over at one of the girl i disliked, Raihana.

2ndly, i pushed Nabila to the wall and shouted at her out of anger and made her cried.

there's more and im too embarrassed and ashame of myself to even list it down.. this is not to boast alright.. hmmm

how immatured and such a bully i was..im ready for any karma or punishments for me..

but i can tell you that im changing each time i grow, everyday for the better..im sorry for the hurts i've caused.. forgive me..

Stand by me?

2011-09-21T12:43:00.003+08:00

that little black Greek dress of mine..

hahah! okay, im just bored.. -_-".. yeah2, you can give me that pathetic look.. =P

2011-09-21T11:06:00.002+08:00

TO START AFRESH, YOU NEED TO LET GO OF THE PAST!

SO YOU'RE DELETED OF MY MIND..

My hero!

2011-09-20T21:26:00.002+08:00

heyy!!

how was my day at work?? one word people, just one word. BORING!! as usual i have nothing much to do, little tasks... the weather today was chilling and my colleague just has to make it worst by having the room temperature down to a 20 degree Celsius!! nothing new about that.. i was freezing people, been to the toilets most of my time.. besides that, i forgot my baby Wave! hahaha! of all the things, i forgot to bring it.. no disturbance but it added to my bore. besides reading my new loaned book, Understand Psychology to kill my boredom, guess what i did today... heheeheh!

have you guess?? whats your guess? sleep?? nooo.. played online games?? noooo...eat3?? nooo..

all no, no, no! hehhehe! i watched TAMIL online movie! hahahhaha! you got it right? that shows how bored i was.. teehee! and my Hero, Joseph Vijay, in it.. hahaha!

and what made my day, i met my primary friend, Yani.. gosh! its been so fucking long years we didnt meet and have a good chat.. and today we did unexpectedly! miss you, dear friend.. all the best for your exams aite.. you can do it.. dont stress out.. =)

ouhkae kawan kawan.. Sugardreams! tired liao..

when im not suppose to

2011-09-19T23:02:00.001+08:00

New Baby was born! wuhooo!

2011-09-19T11:39:00.002+08:00

finally Pwincez got her new baby! her precious GOLD! hahaha!
yesterday i accompanied her to get her baby over at Farrer Park..
prices really going down.. it was a shock, 375 drop to 335?? damn it!
then pwincez got all excited, bought it's clothes and protection cover..
i know deep down pwincez all excited that finally she got what she really wants..
FINALLY la weii! hahah! in her was like a kid jumping up and down, going crazy, pulling her hair excitedly! hahaha! she jus dont want to show it.. *wink. i know, pwincez. teehee
haha! to pwincez have fun with your new baby girl aite! take good care of it.. and tell your aunt! its genuine la!! dont anyhow ok! errrghh! and its less than 400!

Sending him off..

2011-09-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

Heyy Friday!

2011-09-16T13:29:00.005+08:00

Mr & Mrs Weekend, please be nice to me.. teehee! *pout*

i know that i have been disappearing from you.. sorry? hee..!
wasn't on purpose, i have my reasons.. so don't you roll your eyes on me aite? im coming! im coming! this time for real! So..
Havaianas! here i come! =P

*its time to CHANGE*